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once a week

November 22, 2009

The past 3 weeks since the torch relay have just flown by! We spent the better part of 2 weeks in the classroom and then this past week we returned to painting, our woodworking project and a new block on high school. It was so great, but at the same time, emotions were running pretty high and that made the week far more exhausting that I had expected it to be. We made it through though, and now it’s a mere three weeks until I’m at home in my own bed. I’ll be making a bit of a strange detour to Kevin’s staff party but I’m sure it will be fun!

How I want to use this space seems to keep evolving and right now I’m going to make it my goal to post once a week, more if I have the time and energy. I’m pretty sure I can do that! I want to have some of the documentation for this year so I think a weekly post can help do that while balancing my need to do lots of other things.

Some of the cool things from these weeks in review:
– Participating in my first ever lantern walk and learning a bit about St. Martin by way of the grade two play.
– Learning a little bit about how to maintain order in the classroom.
– Seeing how important it is for stories to appeal to the different temperaments. It was a pleasant surprise to see what some of the seemingly least attentive students could remember during our review the next day.
– Authentically providing just enough emotional support to a child that was hurt. (Growing up I didn’t feel like much of a girl because sympathy and empathy were foreign to me. I have a lot of ground to cover but I’m catching up.)
– Having a long lost university friend/hockey teammate and his wife over for dinner and a visit.
– Catching up on life, hockey and exploring downtown with a friend from my SFU years.
– Going contra dancing with leather soled slippers – a big upgrade from the birks I wore last time. My real dance shoes arrived two days too late but they’re ready and waiting for the next dance.
– Joining my classmates and the high school students in a singing session. There were fun songs of yester years and today: the Beatles; John Denver; Peter, Paul and Mary and more.
– Dipping beeswax candles for the first time ever! This has been on my bucket list for 20 years or so and last year I came close when I helped toddlers do this at our Christmas fair. This time I actually got to participate in a set up that was geared towards adults and best of all, I was able to do it with friends. I enjoyed it so much that I did it twice. Once with my classmates, and the next day when the childless contingent of water girls came to visit.

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There were a number of challenges this week but the biggest one was quite a surprise. I was so excited when we were introduced to a new game – space ball – this week and I didn’t even think about what risks there might be to my bones. That was a pleasant surprise until I fell. In the past decade nearly every fall has resulted in a wrist fracture. I can only recall one exception and I’m quite pleasantly surprised to be able to add this too the list. It’s still surprising though, given how hard I fell and the impact reverberated through my whole body. It easily took half the day for me to return to some state of normal and I feel like I’m still recovering from the shock. I’m not sure what the universe is trying to tell me but clearly I need to pay better attention!

And as if that wasn’t enough, while taking the photo for this post, I dropped my camera and it took 20 minutes to make it workable again. The shutter no longer works so I think it’s days may be numbered…agh.

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nineteen days

June 12, 2009

… well now it’s only 18 days until I leave for my summer Waldorf intensive.   Yesterday a kindred spirit shared her countdown – she’s going to California for her training – and we both leave on the same day.  Nineteen is my favourite number  and I hadn’t even realized my departure was getting that close.

I like adventure, especially when it comes in the form of budget-wise, multi-modal, multi-destination travel.  As a result I’ll get a few days with my extended family out east, two airplane rides, a bus ride and a train ride.  If I can find a good and cheap luggage bag I’ll also take my foldy bike and use it and my feet to get around at my destination.  Have you seen my bike?  It’s so cool!

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Another reason for excitement is that the decision of where to go finally came to me yesterday.  Unless something goes utterly wrong between now and then I’ll be off to Ontario in the fall!

I’m running out of time so I really must get to work on that dress.  Have a great weekend!

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16 things about me *updated*

February 1, 2009

I haven’t been blogging very long but this one is hungry to get out of the draft folder.  100 items was too much but 16?  That’s one of my favourite number so I decided to follow granola girl’s lead.  Anyways, here goes.

1. #16 is a cool number in my books because it just so happens to be in the date and time of my birth, is the number of Trevor Linden’s Canucks jersey, and is the square of another favourite, the number 4.  (I also like double 4’s).

2. Oh, how I long to be in the mountains!  Or on the coast (there are mountains there too).

3. I’m so NOT satisfied with my current work but I’ve stayed in the same place for five years.  Crazy, I know!  I never had trouble leaving a job I didn’t like until this time.  It’s amazing to me that my optimism about making a difference has lead to me being so discouraged.  Talk about regrets!

4.  For an extrovert I think a lot.  Most recently it has been about this work thing, what I want to do with my life and how to get Kevin the heck out of this town!

5. I was once vegan but chicken, turkey and fish are staples now.  I still feel guilty about eating poultry (no such guilt with fish for some reason that I don’t understand).   Meat is so easy to prepare and with so many dietary restrictions I feel like I should eat everything that doesn’t bother me.  Sometimes I still have a hard time stomaching it though.

6.  I used to be skinny and unable to gain weight.  Oh how the times have changed.  It took me 10 years but I’ve finally gained the freshman forty, er… thirty.

7.  As much as I needed to gain some of the weight I’m not happy about it.  Muscle weighs more than fat and so it’s not just about the weight I’ve gained but also the muscle I’ve lost.  As eluded to in my tri post it’s taken me a long time to get back onto the fitness band wagon but despite a setback with my knee I’m determined to get and stay fit.

8. I have trouble getting myself to bed on time  so I am often tired.  And more often than I’d like I’m also cranky.  I have yet to understand why Kevin sticks around!

9.  I love to camp, hike and be outside.  I’m not as happy around mosquitoes, cold rain or quads but sometimes that makes the perfect conditions all the more rewarding.

10.  I’ve been reading about the four temperaments and I’m not entirely sure where I fit but it’s nice to know some of my behaviours are considered normal for sanguines.

11. I used to play hockey and it was so much fun!   I mostly played D but in two different seasons my coach moved me to c because I could skate.  I always found that kind of funny since I couldn’t stick handle through traffic to save my life!

12.  I like the character and feel of small older houses but they don’t like me (mold, dust etc.).  I’d love to build my own efficient little house but it seems a waste not to take advantage of the stock that’s already out there.  That, and I seem to like to move…

13. I’d like to be a gypsy, at least for a summer.  That partly explains why the E is an E camper.

14. I’ve never been a girly girl but in the past year I’ve acquired my first 2 pairs of high heels – one for dancing, the others for “being grown up” and now my feet can’t stand either.  Grrr.  I am wearing necklaces now though!

15. I don’t use shampoo or laundry soap.  Life is better without smelly polluting soaps!   Thanks Annie.

16.  I got so excited about pizza last week that I forgot to make this my 16th post.  Darn!  That would be the sanguine in me:)

*Updated – here’s a photo of the “being grown up” shoes

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tired

January 22, 2009

Thinking about authenticity yesterday and sharing my thoughts with the blogging world was great.  The feedback was wonderful too, and I’m amazed at how less alone I feel as a result.  This blogging thing is good.

Yesterday I mentioned that it feels like this place I’m in doesn’t “fit”.  There is so much about this current state I’m in that drives me crazy, but I’m trying to hold back from ranting about it.  This is turning out to be a good exercise  because I’m finally getting some of the answers that have eluded me for so long.

I see myself as a positive, outgoing person and have been struggling with the knowledge that what most new acquaintances have been seeing is a negative, inwardly focused version of me.  I am frustrated by a lot of things here and I couldn’t remember how to go back to being positive.

I tried putting on a happy face but it felt wrong; I needed to get to the root of the problem.  Initially I thought all my frustrations stemmed from a life changing diagnosis but I realize now that it was just the final straw.   Recognizing this has been so helpful.  I was already consumed by frustratation with things at work, not being able to find food I could eat, and a lot of other ugly surprises that red neck Alberta had in store for me.  No matter how hard I tried to overcome these frustrations I just couldn’t seem to do it.  This growing frustration continued to fuel my negativity and knowing my actions weren’t in line with my true self, my anger grew to the point where I was tired and almost ready to give up.

I realize there are some things I won’t be able to change, and that‘s okay.  Some of the things most important to me simply don’t exist here.  I don’t have to change things here, I can choose instead to leave.  And I am.  I’m tired of fighting and I know of many places where I won’t need to waste so much energy.

It’s been a long road to figure out that leaving does not mean that I’m giving up, but that instead I’m being honest with myself and those around me.  It’s such a relief to finally have figured this out!

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being authentic

January 21, 2009

I so enjoy reading authentic blogs like sensible living, a hippie in a minivan, this inspired life, granola girl and more.  I think what really strikes me is how much of themselves the authors share.  That’s something I’m struggling with.

Perhaps one of the biggest thing that makes my blog feel odd is that I don’t share my true name.  I’m not really comfortable with doing that yet since there are some unique things that might make it easy to track me down.   And as of yet it’s only my closest friends, their readers and wordpress bloggers that know they can find me here.  I’m happy to meet strangers but for some reason I want to protect this site from my parents and siblings.  I’m not sure why but that’s the way I’ve been with most things so far in this life.  It might not make sense, but I’d like to honour that feeling, at least for now.

Feelings of vulnerability are also making it hard for me to reveal my real self.  I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately, trying to figure out who I am and what I’m doing here.  While I’m comfortable to share this with people I feel connected to I’ll never know all who read my blog.  What a scary thought!  I’m not sure why I thought it would be so easy before I actually started sharing this space.

One of the main reasons I wanted to start this blog was to cultivate relationships with other likeminded people.  Where I live now doesn’t really “fit” and I’ve gained so much from interacting with the online community of unschooling mamas.  I enjoy my relationships with these folks and want to grow more, perhaps add some other folks that aren‘t yet parents to my network.  To do this I need to be sharing my authentic self.

As I mentioned,  I’m not entirely sure who my authentic self is right now but I know that the reasons I feel connected to my favourite bloggers boils down to values and lifestyle.  I’m concerned about the health of the environment – not just at a global level but at a personal and local level too.  Healthy food and crops are high on my list but so are things like community and social sustainability.

I’m hungry to put better ways of living into practice.  I want to be more in tune with the natural environment and the other people in it, including myself.  I want to be able to do more things for myself and be a better communicator.  I’ve been working on improving my listening skills for years but I’m still a novice in things like nonviolent communication, storytelling and tapping into my internal self.  I have so much to learn!

Thank you for sharing your journey and here, in this space, I welcome you to mine.

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bath bombs

January 14, 2009

Okay, so these are a girly girl kind of thing.  I never thought I’d try them let alone make them but they were on the agenda when I went to visit Annie at Christmas.

We tried one of the more complex recipes as documented on her blog here.

Two weekends ago I pulled a muscle while climbing.  Silly girl that I am, I couldn’t pass up the warm weather and went for an x-c ski the next day.  My legs were so ouched afterwards, creating the perfect situation for trying a bomb.  It was so much easier to toss a it in the bath than go downstairs and mix some essential oils with canola oil.   It fizzed for over a minute!

They were great, but since making them was not without their challenges I decided to try another recipe, inspired by Krista’s.  I didn’t add coloring and I needed to use more witch hazel, probably because it’s so dry here.

They were definitely easier to make and I liked that they didn’t require cornstarch but… they don’t really moisturize and I learned that I’m not too keen on the smell of witch hazel.

So there you have, I’m venturing further into the girly girl realm because I made not one, but two bath bomb recipes.  I think that may be it though!

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I’m tri-ing

January 12, 2009

Last week, in addition to starting my blog, I made a significant step towards another of my bucket list items – completing a triathlon on my own.

Up until almost four years ago I was fit and not much stood between me and the triathlon goal.  There was rarely a weekday where I didn’t have at least one sporting activity planned.  Then I got hurt.  Again.  And I let laziness, disinterest in the available programs, and health issues stand in the way.  Last week I put all those things in the past when I started my triathlon training.

I know it’s only been a week but I can feel the difference already.  It’s been so long since I was able to feel “good” muscle pain.  You know, the kind that tells you you worked those muscles but not the wicked ache of doing too much?   It was so nice (and probably necessary) to have a day off yesterday because there was a lot of that good pain.   I feel much better today, ready for tomorrow’s bike and swim.  Woohoo!

There are still many months between now and my first triathlon but at least I have something to work towards.  I just need to decide which triathlon will be my first.  There are so many to choose from.. women’s only, pool swim, lake swim, close to home, far from home, etc.   And they’re a lot more expensive to enter than I expected – probably because the last team tri I did was circa 1992.

I’m so excited… in 8 more months I’ll have one of my most important  items off “the” list!