Archive for January, 2009


feeling groovy

January 30, 2009

I’m feeling good, a way I’ve longed to feel for so long.

Yesterday wasn’t without challenges but it was still great and I’m flying high today too.  I had a hard time getting up but then I felt like it was going to be one of those good days.  It’s probably that change of perspective from figuring things out but then when Krista announced I had won her book draw I was childlike in my giddiness.  I then went on to have a great chat with a colleague, an unexpected call from a friend and a bit of a rough talk with my mom who doesn’t get why I would want to give up my current career but really wants me to move close to home.

It was really treacherous on the roads so I didn’t make it to workout but I was still happy.  (Kevin and I ended up going through some of my “ultra miscellaneous” boxes so there were some good stories, good memories and some purging too.  Wow, what a difference a good mood makes.)

Whether today is a good day, a bad day, or something in between I’m sure you’ll love this amazing 16 minute video.  Yes, even if you’ve seen it before.


dare to change

January 29, 2009

I can’t remember how I discovered this book but I know it was back in August and it took 5 full months to get a copy.   My local bookseller thought they could get a copy but it was actually out of print.  An old copy of the book finally made it into my sweet little hands just before Christmas.  From all the reviews I read this was going to be “the” book so waiting drove me crazy.  I’m so glad I hung in there and I now feel it’s my duty to share my thoughts on this book.

I haven’t read it as quickly as I’d like because I can’t bear to read it in bed (this 18 year old book is bad news for my allergies).  Despite this I burned through 80% of the book before vacation.  Then I let it sit.

When I picked it up on the weekend it was even better than I remembered.  All that thinking I was doing last week about why it’s so important to leave was echoed in the pages I was reading.  This surprised me initially but then I remembered that this whole book has felt that way and it’s completely unlike anything else I’ve ever read.  It’s like having a heart to heart with friends who have grappled with the same dilemma and come out shining.  They’re not giving advice or telling you what to do, just sharing their stories.  When you’re in that place where you can’t figure out what’s wrong it can be really hard to talk about it and this book was just the ticket I needed to get started.

The book is essentially an analysis of the common threads the author has noticed in her work with people who have made life changing career moves to better align with their authentic selves.  She calls these folks questers.  Early on I could see how closely I related to these folks who value happiness and alignment over a big paycheck.  Yeah, that’s me, and  just like the folks Kanchier writes about I found myself off course.

I’ve been in a job that I pretty near hate for 4 years and was expected to return to this month.  From the very beginning I had thought about leaving but my doubts were equally large.  The day that I left I knew I didn’t want to go back but I couldn’t figure out what a more satisfying solution would be.   Fortunately the past year has allowed me the time to think about this and I finally have an answer.  I’m going to become a teacher; a Waldorf or at least Waldorf inspired one.

With my new found clarity and an extension to my leave I couldn’t be happier!  This book really has changed my life and it could quite possibly change yours too.


a word of thanks

January 28, 2009


It’s been 3 weeks since I started this space and while there were a few days when I questioned my motives for blogging, the support you veterans have given me has made me feel so welcome.  I’m really glad I’ve made the move beyond hijacking other people’s comment pages.

I feel so much better now that I have shared my insecurities about my online identity and how I’ve been feeling in this place that doesn’t fit.  Writing about this was important for me, but the feedback from others who could relate?  That was the most gratifying part of it all.

For days now I’ve been trying to think of how best to respond to some of those comments but I just haven’t been able to find the right words.  Suffice it to say that I’m really happy to be here and be able to learn and grow with all of you.


step 1 completed

January 27, 2009

So that big change that’s on the horizon… one piece of it is school.

Today I sent my applications off to my top two choices and now because of the slowing down of our economy I’m getting ready to put together 3 more application packages… just in case it’s hard for Kevin to find the right job.  That’s going to be pretty hard to do regardless though because he’s pretty happy where he is.

Two years ago I was afraid to force a move because he truly wasn’t ready but a lot has changed in that time and he’s no longer talking about some far off time in the future when he says he wants to go back to he coast.

I’m so happy to have those applications out and know that we’ve finally taken some action towards leaving.  Our plans won’t become very firm for a few months yet but we’ve made one of the first baby step.  Yippee!


back to food

January 26, 2009

It’s so easy for us to get in a rut and make the same meals week after week. Same goes with getting accustomed to buying snack foods that someone else has prepared.  It’s so expensive and thinking about the changes this next year is going to bring I’ve finally convinced myself that it’s time for a change.

In the past month we’ve been eating more vegan meals (three to five days a week) and I’m getting back to baking.  It’s so great to have more than 2 cookies to choose from and to revisit some of my favourite muffin recipes from before.  And of course saving moolah never hurts!

Early on in our relationship I was introduced to a beat up version of the Purity Cookbook that Kevin’s mom used religiously when he lived at home.  When I saw a reprinted version of it last year I decided to take a chance and try it out.   The organization and index aren’t overly user friendly but I’ve found some great traditional cookie recipes that are hard to find anywhere else.  On Sunday night I tried  these:


Thimble cookies, but not the way my mother made them (she always used blackberry jelly which I never liked as a kid).

The wheat free version I created is definitely going in the next edition of my cookbook, although I’ll likely double the recipe.  Here’s what the 16 cookie recipe I tried last night looks like:

1/2 cup vegan margarine

1/4 cup raw sugar

2 tsp lemon juice (that’s not even a substitution!)

1 flax egg (1 Tbsp flax meal with 3 Tbsp water)

1 cup whole spelt flour

1 cup crushed nuts

a little bit of berry jam

It’s pretty simple.  Cream margarine and sugar, then mix in lemon juice and HALF of the flax egg.   Add the flour and you’ve got a fairly gooey cookie.  Roll the dough into 2-3 cm diameter balls and then roll them in the remaining flax egg, before coating them in the crushed nuts.  Place on a parchment lined cookie sheet.  Before popping them in a 350 F oven, use your finger to create a divot in the middle (the jam will go here later).  They bake for 15- 17 minutes and while I didn’t need to deepen the hole partway through the cooking you might want to check after the first 5-7 minutes of cooking.  As soon as they come out of the oven, fill the holes with jam. Mmm mmm good!

I know they contain a good amount of oil but I’m preferring this nutty raspberry jam cookie to the margarine coated popcorn I eat when there’s nothing else in the cupboard.  Plus they’re surprisingly quick and easy to make with ingredients we always have in stock.  They’re going quickly too – I’m already down to 9 and I’m the only one who can eat them.


bath bombs revisited

January 25, 2009

I finally have a photo of the two types of bath bombs to share.  I meant to share them sooner but you know how life sometimes gets in the way.  Now I’ve not only made two different types of bath bombs, but I’ve also written 2 of my first 20 blog posts about bath bombs.  That really IS crazy.

The pink ones are using Annie’s recipe and the white ones are from Krista’s recipe except I used cinnamon leaf essential oil and left out the colorant.  You can see the textures are quite different – the epsom salts seem to shimmer, but the end product is also more delicate than the rock solid white ones.01-bath-bombs2

*If* I try making either of these again there are some things I will do differently.  For example, measuring cups and cylindrical cylinders work for molds but because there’s no way for the air to escape it can be difficult to remove them without causing breakage.  I’m not sure what I would use instead but I would look for something with a hole in the bottom or a slightly conical shape (so that it’s wider on the top).  There’s got to be something around here that fits that description, should I be in need of making more sometime soon.

It’s been a busy weekend – yesterday and Friday night were devoted to the provincial lego tournament and this year it was a home schoolers group that won – just like on the east coast!  The reigning champs went to a different tournament this year and it was so nice to see a different group of kids win.  Me and a lot of the other volunteers were really impressed with their robot design and how cohesiveness the team was since they didn’t see each other every day.  It was a long day but a fun day.

Here’s to a great week full of sun and warming temperatures!


crazy pizza

January 22, 2009

When we started making dinner tonight I had no intentions of turning the process into a blog post.  Oh, I love how things change like that.  I was relaying to Kevin how a friend of mine from university was making pizza today too because I noticed her facebook post.  That made me happy.

Usually I buy these ridiculously expensive spelt tortillas for me but today I was in the mood to make them from scratch, just like in the old days.


pizza production

While we were preparing the pizzas that our funny diets require we started singing Charlotte Diamond’s “I am a pizza”.  We couldn’t remember the French words for oregano so you know what that would mean… yep we went to Youtube, because the whole song is available there.

You’re probably wondering why this dink pair would be singing kids songs and I love the story so here goes.

Since Kevin is gluten free among other things, we  sometimes check in on gluten free girls blog.  I’m sure we’d visit more if there wasn’t so much dairy but I digress.  In the fall I came across this post.  Reading Shauna’s post, I realized just how many of the songs I knew – every single one!  I was reading out some of the post to Kevin and he recognized most of them too so of course we had to find e versions of the songs to singalong with.  It was so much fun!

That takes me to Charlotte Diamond and pizza.  We just couldn’t get our fill of songs from our childhood so we started looking for what our French Immersion sisters listened to, and well, the pizza song stuck.


My crazy spelt tortilla pizza

Our pizza today rocked, thanks to some happy coincidences and the song “I am a pizza”.


Kev's "bread" pizza